Daily Check-In

[mecurtin]

This is your check-in post for today. The poll will be open from midnight Universal or Zulu Time (8pm Eastern Time on Monday) to midnight (8pm Tuesday Eastern Time).

Poll #23680 Daily poll

This poll is closed.
Open to: Access List, detailed results viewable to: Access List, participants: 71

How are you doing?

I am OK
61 (85.9%)

I am not OK, but don't need help right now
9 (12.7%)

I could use some help
1 (1.4%)

How many other humans live with you?

I am living single
31 (43.7%)

One other person
19 (26.8%)

More than one other person
21 (29.6%)

Please, talk about how things are going for you in the comments, ask for advice or help if you need it, or just discuss whatever you feel like.

Comments

[darkemeralds]

A good friend of mine has worrying symptoms, so this day seems worse than yesterday. I'm holding up okay--no real hardship, and I'm used to being mostly alone--but I have to acknowledge that the stress is getting to me in weird, subtle ways.

No will to do anything. No willpower either. No focus. Just zombie-ing through the day. I hope tomorrow will be better. The vicissitudes of mood and good news/bad news are unsettling.

[mecurtin]

I'm writing at 7:25 my time, having been awake since 4:30 or so. This is the same pattern I fell into in the months after November 6, 2016, so it's not unfamiliar. And I've been being treated for depression for decades at this point, so I'm really good at recognizing the symptoms & being able to tell when it's exogenous instead of endogenous. Though I also printed out a schedule of when I'm supposed to take my meds for my husband & daughter, so they know when to remind me--anxiety like this makes me extra-forgetful.

One thing that really helps many people is going outside, to garden or on nature walks.

[darkemeralds]

Thank you for a good reminder. I spent years in trauma therapy battling depression, too, and I should have been quicker to remember the endo/exo difference. This stuff is exogenous (though of course there's always the danger of that seeping in and triggering the endogenous kind).

Walking is my salvation right now. Normally it would be riding my bike, but I have nowhere much to go and I've never been one to ride just for leisure--it's always been transportation. But walking? Most natural and real thing in the world.